I try to keep this blog light, and focused on the adventures of my baby girl but, tonight I'm feeling burdened. It's at these time the longing for a spouse is the strongest.
Someone in college (who was on the cusp of getting engaged at the age of 20 by the way), once told me to 'Let Jesus be your husband'. I've never fully grasped that concept, and don't know that I fully agree with it. I know God is sovereign, and has promised to meet all of my needs.
However, when I'm worried, and burdened like tonight it would be nice to have the physical presence of a man to hold me, reassure me, say 'it's going to be okay', and tell me this is our plan to get through.
(Let me just post-script this by saying I'm not naive enough to think that marriage is a fix to all problems, and not all husbands would respond in the way I've played this scenario out, and I fully realize there are women out there who are quite lonely in their marriage).
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Hey Terri Ann,
I have to say that for me when I'm upset the one thing I don't want Matthew to say is, "It's going to be ok." Because deep down I know that, but I want to just be upset for awhile and not feel bad because I've misplaced my faith for awhile. But that's just me...
I pretty much don't remember much about life before Matthew so I'm not going to give you the ol' I know how you feel, but I will say that your beautiful smile and sweet hospitality will always bring a smile to my face. Your friendship was one of the best things about my time in Boston and one day maybe some very lucky man may also realize what an incredible woman you are! Until then call me if you want to talk :)
Hi Terri,
I completely understand and have days where I long for a mans comforting touch. My married girlfriends usually laugh and say that their husbands are not the snuggly type ... but I can still dream until he rides in in his red pick-up truck (Ok, I think a guy should drive a truck or SUV).
Karen
I am so with you, girl. I have even been having CRAZY dreams. My latest was that I got stuck on an elevator with this guy and the elevator turned upside down (told ya it was crazy) and when we were finally rescued we went our separate ways and then all of the sudden ran back into each other and we realized that we were madly in love with each other and we shared a passionate kiss....told ya, I've got it BAD!!! You are not alone friend. Hugs, E
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