Get ready... coming up on one year home!!!

This was my blog post from about one year ago when I was in the final weeks before she came home.  It includes a post from 2 years ago, before she was even born.

February 22, 2008 Reflecting...

The past 24 hours I've been processing so much of this reality. My daughter is going to be home in just a few weeks. I'm sure I'm going through all the emotions that Mom's do right before they're due to give birth. Will I be good enough for her? What will our life together be like? What will her personality be? Can I love her enough? Will I be a good Mom? I'm sure once she is here sleeping in her room all these questions, thoughts & worries will just disappear, and she & I will just 'BE'.

I looked back to my blog entries from last March & this is what I wrote on March 2nd.

Marathon...
...not a sprint.

March 2, 2007

The last week I have had some concerns with pursuing an adoption in Guatemala which I won't go into here... bottom line is after much prayer and consideration I have decided to continue on this road until something stops me. I re-read the bible verse I have on my home page of this blog

"Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, 'This is the way; Walk in it." - Isiah 30:21

I realized that adoption is not a journey for the faint of heart, and if I run and hide everytime I get scared I will never find my child.

So, taking another step of faith I am trusting that the Lord has my child in Guatemala, and until something insurmontable happens to stop me I need to forge ahead.

God was leading me on this journey, and now the finish line is in sight, and a whole new journey begins. I am still humbled that He has called me to be this little girl's Mommy, I pray He will give me the wisdom, grace & strength for the task.

 

The line below is so true...

I'm sure once she is here sleeping in her room all these questions, thoughts & worries will just disappear, and she & I will just 'BE'.

although I still have my moments of doubt, and I daily pray for wisdom to be her Mommy, we quickly settled into a routine of 'US'... we just are what we are.  We are a family. 

She has brought a life and energy into this house, making it a home, filled with giggles, cries, cheerios (EVERYWHERE), sippy cups, Pooh bears, Sesame Street, animal crackers, strong will, waking up in the middle of the night, stepping on unexpected items.

On  a side note, I painted her toenails for the first time this weekend... she's VERY proud of them (and has now discovered my stash of nail polish... this can't be good).