Being held up…

God is holding me up… not just emotionally, and spiritually, but physically as well.  I lost my job yesterday.

God knew this was coming long before I did, and as I reflect back I see His preparing a support system to surround me, and hold me up… I feel such peace…. some in the world would call it denial… but I know it’s peace.  That’s not to say I don’t have moments when the fear, and doubt creep in,  I was awake for several hours last night, but I’m able to fight them back with the peace.  I’ve had counsel from 2 different sources in the last 24 hours that have said …. lean in to Him…stay close to Him… rest your head on His shoulder…. so that’s what I’m choosing…. trusting this …another closed door is His faithfulness keeping me on the path He has laid out for me before the stars were hung in the sky.

The Steven Curtis Chapman song is in my heart & mind tonight… “Be Still & Know” … if you’ve never heard this song track it down on youtube, or itunes… it’s quite powerful.  This is the verse I’m clinging to…

Come rest your head upon his breast
Listen to the rhythm of
His unfailing heart of love
Beating for his little ones
Calling each of us to come
Be still
Be still

Just to leave a little Madalynn luv… This is the face we get when she wants something… a smile… tilt of the head… her hands are usually clasped too… and a big…. “Peeezzzze”….

One other sad note… Nemo (Madalynn’s little beta fish) left this world today… she wasn’t too traumatized… although at bedtime she kept saying… “I miss Nemo… he was such a good little fish….”  A picture from the day we got him.  Thanks for being such a good little fish Nemo….