Time for 'Mom' reflection...

It's Mother's Day weekend, and I keep telling my Mom that I already have all I want for mother's day. I don't need anything else. My heart still bursts with love for this precious baby girl.

Today, May 10th is Mother's day in Guatemala, and my heart is so heavy for Madalynn's birth mother. I've been trying to come up with a tradition Madalynn & I can do together to honor her birth mother every year on this day. I liked the idea of writing something, tying it to a balloon, and releasing it. Although, I don't know if I'd want some stranger getting it, and knowing my & someday Madalynn's thoughts & feelings. I would like to plant a tree, and then every year plant some flowers around the trunk... living in a condo that isn't an option. I think for now I'm going to write her birthmom a letter, and put it away somewhere, and then as Madalynn gets older let her write one too.

So often I'll be playing with Madalynn, or doing something for her, and think that her birth mother is missing this. I can't help but be sad that she doesn't get to see the delightful, happy girl that I know, and love as my daughter, and yet be so grateful for this indescribable gift she has given me. A woman I will probably never meet. There are so many things I want to share with her about Madalynn. All the new things she's learning. It would melt her heart to see Madalynn give Pooh bear a hug. Madalynn's goofy side that makes us all laugh, and her determined spirit that I'm sure will try my patience in the coming years, and reminds Ga-Ga of another determined girl she raised.

My heart is heavy for all the Mom's in process waiting for their babies to come home. I know that longing, and time just stretching out before you with no finite point to look toward as your finish line. I'm praying for all of you that this Mother's Day would bring peace, and that you would hold your precious babies in your arms forever in the not too distant future.

I also want to acknowledge all the 'Mom's at heart' out there who for whatever reason aren't Mom's yet, but so long to be. Whether it's years of struggling with infertility, or singleness, or whatever other reason. I know that pain very well, as I spent many a Mother's Day having a bittersweet day. Wanting to honor my own mother, and yet feeling the sting of my own empty arms. God has already given you a Mom's heart even if the fullfillment of that is yet unseen. God is working out His plan perfectly for you, and I pray the fullfillment of that desire comes to be very soon.

Tomorrow I will celebrate my first Mother's Day with my daughter, and I'm already crying... I'd suggest buying stock in Kleenex... it's going to be a 10 hanky day.


Happy Mother's Day everyone.




BTW, I've narrowed her dress selection down to 3... anyone care to vote?? See the poll at the top of the page...


Pretty In Pink





Cream Dream



Polka Dot Fun